I sat in a restaurant at the bar waiting for my iced vanilla latte with almond milk and my breakfast bowl. I was alone. And, I started to feel a sense of extreme loneliness.
I came to Oklahoma City for a work conference and it was no big deal when my president booked the hotel and flight until I got to the restaurant. I've ever gone out to eat by myself and so, I didn't know what to do. I seemed to be the only one who was by themself and I felt like the bartender was judging me.
Do I pretend like I'm looking at something on my phone? Do I talk to the bartender, who seemed as if he didn't want to converse? No one was sitting near me, so there was no one to chat with. So, I sat there taking a few Instagram videos looking forward to getting back to the hotel where I wouldn't feel judged. It was pretty apparent that I already - mind you it's been 7 hours - missed my husband. Pathetic, much? Yeah, but I just felt so lonely.
I've never traveled somewhere solely by myself. Sure - I've gone to PA and traveled by plane, but my brother and girlfriend picked me up at the airport and I was seeing family. I've also gone to Canada by myself, but again, I was meeting someone at the airport. This was THE first time I've been alone. I mean, tonight we're networking and registering for the conference, but leading up to that, I've just felt sad.
I never focus on the fact that I'll be alone and I'm glad I don't, but it always surprises me whenever I feel this way. You SHOULD be alone sometimes and re-group because we all need time apart from our significant other. We need that time in order to truly appreciate them. I just feel like this day has been going on forever! I had a layover, which felt even longer and so, now I'm a tad confused as to what day it is!
But, sometimes you need to step out of your comfort zone. Sometimes you need to feel uncomfortable because you learn more about yourself. So what if I miss my husband, that doesn't mean I won't mingle or network with my colleagues. That doesn't mean I'm not happy to be here. That doesn't mean that I'm not excited to learn. It just means I prefer to travel with someone else, no big deal. I would say the common person likes to be with other people.
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